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Good Enough
...written on 2007-06-30, @ 5:08 p.m.
Will I ever be good enough for you?
I wanted you to look at me and think I'm beautiful.
Instead you played me, now I'm the fool
What's it going to take, to take your breath away?
Whatever it is I'll do it just to know you'll stay
Why can't you see that what you're looking for is standing right in front of you?
Instead your eyes are every where but where they should be.
When I walk into a room I want to be the only one you see
I want to see you smile with such glee when you look at me
When we're apart I want to be the only woman you lust for
And not have to worry about you looking for a skanky whore
I want to be the silhouette you envision in your mind
When you close your eyes I want it to be my face you find
Is it that that my hips are too big or that my lips are too small?
Is it the clothes I wear or the fact that I wont dare bare it all?
Could it be the few pounds I've put on?
Or the fact that I don't take frequent trips to the salon?
Should I strip down and bare it all
Dance around a little pole and lose my soul?
Should I be dancing on top of a bar
And acting like a drunken film star?
If that's what you prefer then that's what I'll do
I want to know that everything you're looking for
I am and much, much more
If you need me to bare it all and dance for you
Then I guess that's what I'll do
Just to know that I won't lose you
I'd lose all the weight; I'd walk around in a short mini skirt
I'd dye my hair blonde; I'd do anything to get you to respond
I'd change how I look, I'd change who I am
I'd do anything to have you think I'm one of them
I'd put everything I believe in aside
I'd give up all of my pride
I'd even hide the fact that I just cried
I wish I would have never found out that you lied
Everything's changed now and I don't know what to do
But every time I think about it, it always makes me blue
Why did you hide it? Why did you lie?
Did you ever think about what your actions would imply?
What do you think it says to me when you're out looking for what you've got
To me it says that you don't think I'm very hot
Now look what you've done
Everything we stood for and everything we were, has come undone
You're torn me into pieces; you've bruised and broken my heart
I just wish I was good enough for you from the start.
